I love snuggling this baby girl. But I don't love it so much that I want to do it again with another one. I'm coming to terms with the fact that even though I always imagined having at least three kids, and the two I have are perfect and wonderful and I love them so very, very much, it's okay that I don't want to have more. I feel like it's very easy to feel guilty over this, but the fact is there are more dynamics that come into play sometimes than just fertility, and Jason and I have perfectly legit reasons (which of course we don't have to go into even when it seems even complete strangers are always dying of curiosity about such personal details...).
But still. I'm gonna miss this. In spite of sleepless nights and many tears and wondering how i can possibly go on, it is well worth it to have these two girls. I wouldn't trade them for anything - but it's okay that they are enough.
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