Well, here's a real can of worms...

I just discovered a site called the Fearless Formula Feeder and i'm linking to it because i think this is important: http://www.fearlessformulafeeder.com/ I believe breastfeeding is a wonderful thing, but Kaylen and i got off to a bad start with it and in some ways i feel like i'm still suffering the consequences of that in the severe fatigue i never have recovered from and my worry that Kaylen isn't getting enough (again). I'm glad i stuck with it because a) there have been some really, really good times breastfeeding and b) when it's working, it's easy to feed her and c) it's CHEAP. Formula is terribly expensive and i hate buying it - but i don't regret for a second giving it to her. I've had a good experience with a supportive pediatrician, an excellent lactation consultant who finally told me i NEED to give my baby an extra bottle before bed so i can sleep, and a mom and mother-in-law who are encouraging instead of judgmental. But then there is the internet and facebook and maybe some friends who would not be so understanding. I know i shouldn't care, but i hate lines like "breast is best" - even though i believe it is in lots or even most cases. And if i had a better supply and/or could pump more than a couple ounces, i might never spare a thought about this. But as it is, i'm thankful for Similac and i'm glad sites that are pro-formula exist. Because really, even if you choose to bottle-feed entirely only because you need your rest after those first trying days or weeks, that's a legitimate reason. You know what you can handle, and if breastfeeding isn't it, i don't blame you! Quite honestly, if not for the monetary consideration, i might not have stuck it out past three months and that would not have been a bad thing emotionally or physically (for either of us - Kaylen is so chunky she has to wear 12-18 month clothing as it is).

Anyway, i did not mean to turn this into a rant and i will never post this on facebook...but i'm a bit braver on my blog. :) And i'll be happy if breastfeeding goes great with the next one!